when ......

when my eyes couldn't cry any more
when i had no reason to get out of bed
when i was killing my body
when i had no reason to live
when i had no love
when i had no hope
when there was no light for me
when i blamed you for all my mistakes
when i was running away from you
when i was dying in sin
You found me my lord you found me and gave me hope you gave me love, you gave me peace you forgave my sins and you gave me light and showed me the way.

thank You my Jesus, My lord my God

Depressed or TIRED

Many of us in this high-paced world are either too busy or just plain unable to decide whether they are tired or whether they are depressed.

How is one to know? 

After all, the symptoms are so similar. If you choose tired when you are really depressed, you may never write that next great number one teenage angst song. But if you choose depressed when you’re just tired, you may end up in the psych ward and who wants that?  So here are a few guidelines to follow so you’ll know whether you’re in need of rest or whether you’re in need of prescribed pharmaceuticals: 

*If you fall asleep while watching TV you are tired.

*If you fall asleep while eating you are depressed. 

 

*If you fall asleep on the couch during the day it is called taking a refreshing nap. 

*If you crawl into bed during the day it is called severe mental anguish.

*If you don’t want to get out of bed because it’s winter and your bed is just too damn cozy then that’s just common sense.

*If you don’t want get out of bed in the summer then that means you are completely mental.

ketika aku sakit

Aku tidak suka kalau jatuh sakit. Walaupun sakitnya menyelamatkanku dari deadline, atau apapun yg sekilas jadi tampak ‘sedikit menguntungkan’. [Siapa sih, orang yang suka jatuh sakit].

Anyway, apa sih yang paling tidak kamu sukai saat sakit? 

Kalau aku… aku tidak suka sendiri, sepi dan diperparah oleh hal yang tidak terhindarkan mendengarkan suara detak jarum detik jam. Tak henti-henti, dan begitu monoton. Aku bosan mendengarkan detak jarum detik jam. Terutama ketika sedang tidak bisa tidur lagi [karena sudah tidur terus seharian].

Oleh karena itu aku lebih suka jam yang jarum detiknya berjalan pelan namun tidak berdetak. Kata seorang teman, jam semacam itu malah buruk untuk diletakkan di ruang tunggu, karena waktu tampak cepat sekali berlalu. Tapi bagiku, menunggu saja sudah bete, apalagi jika ditambah dengan mendengar suara detak jam. Fuuuiihhh…. Makasih!

Oh iya, ngomong-ngomong soal sakit. Saat terkahir kali aku sakit, kan tidak bisa makan yang keras-keras. hanya bisa makan bubur SUN dan Ternyata enak lho!hahah ...  Ketika SUN-nya tidak habis dimakan ketika sakit, aku bawa ke kantor untuk dimakan saat kelaparan. Pengalaman membuktikan bahwa SUN Beras Merah lebih enak daripada SUN Kacang Hijau. Hahaha…..

Satu lagi. Mumpung masing ngobrol tentang sakit. Berikut adalah daftar obat-obat (selain obat luka) yang menurutku penting untuk kumiliki di rumah:

• obat penurun panas
• obat anti sakit (Paracetamol)
• obat diare
• obat maag
• obat batuk pilek
• obat sakit kepala

Carry Me Home

Lord bring me home again
I'm no longer able
To bear the bitter winds
Or the heavy rains
I've long been settled
Lord without comfort
Just a man on an earthly throne headed for the grave

Carry me home
Sweet Jesus lift me
Until I've flown
The shadow of shame
Your love alone
Lord Jesus mends me
Lift me up
Oh Lord carry me home

Lord I've been branded
A loyal sinner
Seems like forever
Since I said Your name
I'm just a pilgrim
Still afraid of dying
But the sea is shining brightly
With Your grace

(Lifebook) =>>

* Health:

1. Drink plenty of water

2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar

3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants (factory)

4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy

5. Make time for prayer

6. Play more games

7. Read more books than you did in 2009

8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day

9. Sleep for 7 hours

10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day ---- and while you walk, SMILE !!

* Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

13. Don't over do ; keep your limits

14. Don't take yourself so seriously ; no one else does

15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip

16. Dream more while you are awake

17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..

18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.

20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present

21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you

22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

23. Smile and Laugh more

24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagre

Community:

25. Call your family often

26. Each day give something good to others

27. Forgive everyone for everything

28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6

29. Try to make at least three people smile each day

30. What other people think of you is none of your business

31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right things

33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful

34. GOD heals everything

35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change

36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up !

37. The best is yet to come

38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it

39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be HAPPY !!!!!!!



 

Gw JELEk ( dulu )

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Gw dulu jelek. kadang terlalu kurus, kadang terlalu gemuk... dan terutama Gw ngerasa minder bahwa gua jelek. Ngga pernah ada yg memuji gw cantik atau manis. Itu membuat gw merasa diri gw tdk berharga. Gw makin ngga perduli sama diri gw sendiri. Public judgement memberi hukuman pada gw. Public judgement seolah-olah berkata bahwa yg jelek tdk diterima.
Akhirnya jadilah gw yg minder dan selalu berdiri di belakang. Yg setiap maju ke dpn umum gemeteran

sampe satu mlm pas gw kenal Tuhan dan guw berdoa , saat itu gw baru mengerti bahwa Tuhan tdk melihat pada penampilan tp pada hati. Hatiku yg hancur pun akan dipulihkan. Gw menyadari diri gw berharga tanpa harus punya idunk yg mancung (sampe hr ini jg idung gw pesek), diri gw berharga tanpa harus punya body yg aduhai, diri gw berharga tanpa harus punya jari yg lentik. Gw berharga karena pribadi gw. Karena Tuhan yg menciptakan mata, hidung, mulut, dan semua bagian dr tubuh kita. Ketika kita menyalahkan keburukan kita secara fisik, kita jg sedang menyalahkan Tuhan.

Gw merasa dicintai apa adanya gw. Gw merasa berharga tanpa harus memiliki semua itu

Gw tetep bkn yg tercantik, yg termanis, yg terindah, yg terrrr...segala²nya.Tp semenjak gw menyadari bahwa hati yg cantik merupakan mutiara yg terindah bagi wanita .. sejak itu ada yg bilang bahwa gw cantik. Why?


* hahhahhha! Semangat ni ngetiknya .. Tapi legaaa.. Coz gw berharga bagi DIA *

He knows my name

I have a Maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hands

I have a Father
He calls me His own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go

 

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And He hears me when I call

[MV] Goodbye My Princess - Monday Kiz

Doa yang kusuka disaat aku jatuh cinta ( someday ) * twink ..twink ... *

Doa yang kusuka disaat aku jatuh cinta dengan seseorang, biar kehendak Tuhan yg terjadi padaku

Tuhan Yesus...Saat aku MENYUKAI seorang TEMAN...Ingatkanlah aku bahwa akan ada sebuah AKHIR...Sehingga aku tetap bersama YANG TAK PERNAH BERAKHIR...

Tuhan Yesus...Ketika aku MERINDUKAN seorang KEKASIH...RINDUkanlah aku kepada dia yang RINDU Cinta SEJATI-MU...Agar keRINDUanku terhadap-MU semakin BERTAMBAH...

Tuhan Yesus...Jika aku hendak MENCINTAI seseorang...TEMUKANlah aku dengan orang yang menCINTAI-MU...Agar bertambah KUAT CINTAku pada-MU...

Tuhan Yesus...Ketika aku sedang JATUH CINTA...JAGAlah CINTA itu...Agar tidak meLEBIHi cintaku PADA-MU...

Tuhan Yesus...Ketika aku berucap AKU JUGA CINTA PADAMU...Biarlah kukatakan kepada yang HATInya TERPAUT padaMU...Agar aku TAK JATUH dalam CINTA yang bukan KARENA-MU...

Tuhan Yesus...Ketika aku berikrar AKU AKAN SETIA sampai maut memisahkan...Biarlah kuNYATAkan kepada dia yang MENGGENAPKAN VisiMu atas hidupku...

MENCINTAI seseorang BUKANLAH APA-APA...DICINTAI seseorang adalah SESUATU...DICINTAI oleh orang yang KAU CINTAI sangatlah BERARTI...

tapi lebih dari itu ingatlah...DICINTAI oleh SANG PENCINTA adalah SEGALANYA...

Miliki kerinduan untuk MENCINTAI YESUS lebih dari SEGALA yang ada padamu...

TETAP SETIA sampai pada akhirnya...

** AKU...untuk...KAMU **

Your Love Never Fails -Chris Quilala / Jesus Culture

Nothing can separate
Even if I run away
Your love never fails
I know I still make mistakes
But You have new mercies for me everyday

Just something i read from the bible

If I speak in the tongues of girl and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. 

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 

Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord

MIRROR ME

the world Say's that you cant do it BUT to let you know! THE LORD SAY'S YOU CAN!

When I stare into the mirror What is it I see? I see my own reflection, Staring back at me. 

But then I look deep within , The mirror of my soul. I see my present, and my past , And what the future holds.I see myself as what I am , And what I could have been. I see the shadow side of me,That's hidden deep within. As I stare at my reflection,Staring back through my own eyes. I see myself as others do,But I also see the lies. Others cannot see, of course,This person I conceal. They know the person I've become,But my other side is real. The mirror rids me of disguise, Of hatred,truth, and tears,I see myself through my own eyes,And see my deepest fears. Maybe I should end it all,So many ways to die. I lean up against my wall,And suddenly begin to cry. The tears stream down my face, As I begin to say-goodbye. Good-bye, sunshine, goodbye, mom
Cant say i didn't try Then I look into the mirror, And see me standing there! A trouble, lost, and lonely child,With tear stained cheeks and matted hair.The mirror has two faces One of truth, reality .The other is what others see,My made-up fantasy
Well, mirror, thanks for being there,But it's time I step away. It's time my mask came off for good,The real Me's here to stay

Lord ...

You have examined me and know all about me.

You know when I sit down and when I get up

You know my thoughts from afar.

You know where I go and when I lie down.

You know everything I do

Lord even before I say a word you already know it

Thanks Jesus

for knowing Your sheeps by name..

Tiada Ternilai (a True Worshippers "Glory to Glory" cover) [by Clara & A...

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tanpa alasan yang jelas
dimana aku menangis dan bersedih
hanya karna masalah sepele


Di hari yang tidak berpihak padaku,
hari yang sangat melelahkan....
Rasanya aku ingin marah
kepada semua orang


Walaupun beribu-ribu kali meyakinkan diri sendiri
semuanya akan baik-baik saja
Walaupun sudah berusaha keras
untuk tersenyum menghadapi semuanya
Namun ada hari dimana aku
bahkan tak bisa menghibur diriku sendiri


Kalau begitu...
Jangan bertanya alasan mengapa aku seperti itu...
Jangan bertanya apa-apa padaku
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