ketika aku . . .

Ketika aku tak dihargai, saat itulah aku sedang belajar tentang ketulusan. 

Ketika usahaku dinilai tak penting, saat itulah aku sedang belajar tentang arti sebuah keikhlasan.

Ketika aku lelah dan kecewa, saat itulah aku sedang belajar arti kesungguhan.

Ketika aku merasa sepi dan sendiri, saat itulah aku sedang  belajar tentang ketangguhan.

when ......

when my eyes couldn't cry any more
when i had no reason to get out of bed
when i was killing my body
when i had no reason to live
when i had no love
when i had no hope
when there was no light for me
when i blamed you for all my mistakes
when i was running away from you
when i was dying in sin
You found me my lord you found me and gave me hope you gave me love, you gave me peace you forgave my sins and you gave me light and showed me the way.

thank You my Jesus, My lord my God

Depressed or TIRED

Many of us in this high-paced world are either too busy or just plain unable to decide whether they are tired or whether they are depressed.

How is one to know? 

After all, the symptoms are so similar. If you choose tired when you are really depressed, you may never write that next great number one teenage angst song. But if you choose depressed when you’re just tired, you may end up in the psych ward and who wants that?  So here are a few guidelines to follow so you’ll know whether you’re in need of rest or whether you’re in need of prescribed pharmaceuticals: 

*If you fall asleep while watching TV you are tired.

*If you fall asleep while eating you are depressed. 

 

*If you fall asleep on the couch during the day it is called taking a refreshing nap. 

*If you crawl into bed during the day it is called severe mental anguish.

*If you don’t want to get out of bed because it’s winter and your bed is just too damn cozy then that’s just common sense.

*If you don’t want get out of bed in the summer then that means you are completely mental.

ketika aku sakit

Aku tidak suka kalau jatuh sakit. Walaupun sakitnya menyelamatkanku dari deadline, atau apapun yg sekilas jadi tampak ‘sedikit menguntungkan’. [Siapa sih, orang yang suka jatuh sakit].

Anyway, apa sih yang paling tidak kamu sukai saat sakit? 

Kalau aku… aku tidak suka sendiri, sepi dan diperparah oleh hal yang tidak terhindarkan mendengarkan suara detak jarum detik jam. Tak henti-henti, dan begitu monoton. Aku bosan mendengarkan detak jarum detik jam. Terutama ketika sedang tidak bisa tidur lagi [karena sudah tidur terus seharian].

Oleh karena itu aku lebih suka jam yang jarum detiknya berjalan pelan namun tidak berdetak. Kata seorang teman, jam semacam itu malah buruk untuk diletakkan di ruang tunggu, karena waktu tampak cepat sekali berlalu. Tapi bagiku, menunggu saja sudah bete, apalagi jika ditambah dengan mendengar suara detak jam. Fuuuiihhh…. Makasih!

Oh iya, ngomong-ngomong soal sakit. Saat terkahir kali aku sakit, kan tidak bisa makan yang keras-keras. hanya bisa makan bubur SUN dan Ternyata enak lho!hahah ...  Ketika SUN-nya tidak habis dimakan ketika sakit, aku bawa ke kantor untuk dimakan saat kelaparan. Pengalaman membuktikan bahwa SUN Beras Merah lebih enak daripada SUN Kacang Hijau. Hahaha…..

Satu lagi. Mumpung masing ngobrol tentang sakit. Berikut adalah daftar obat-obat (selain obat luka) yang menurutku penting untuk kumiliki di rumah:

• obat penurun panas
• obat anti sakit (Paracetamol)
• obat diare
• obat maag
• obat batuk pilek
• obat sakit kepala

Carry Me Home

Lord bring me home again
I'm no longer able
To bear the bitter winds
Or the heavy rains
I've long been settled
Lord without comfort
Just a man on an earthly throne headed for the grave

Carry me home
Sweet Jesus lift me
Until I've flown
The shadow of shame
Your love alone
Lord Jesus mends me
Lift me up
Oh Lord carry me home

Lord I've been branded
A loyal sinner
Seems like forever
Since I said Your name
I'm just a pilgrim
Still afraid of dying
But the sea is shining brightly
With Your grace

(Lifebook) =>>

* Health:

1. Drink plenty of water

2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar

3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants (factory)

4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy

5. Make time for prayer

6. Play more games

7. Read more books than you did in 2009

8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day

9. Sleep for 7 hours

10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day ---- and while you walk, SMILE !!

* Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

13. Don't over do ; keep your limits

14. Don't take yourself so seriously ; no one else does

15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip

16. Dream more while you are awake

17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..

18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.

20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present

21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you

22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

23. Smile and Laugh more

24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagre

Community:

25. Call your family often

26. Each day give something good to others

27. Forgive everyone for everything

28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6

29. Try to make at least three people smile each day

30. What other people think of you is none of your business

31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right things

33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful

34. GOD heals everything

35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change

36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up !

37. The best is yet to come

38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it

39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be HAPPY !!!!!!!



 

Gw JELEk ( dulu )

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Gw dulu jelek. kadang terlalu kurus, kadang terlalu gemuk... dan terutama Gw ngerasa minder bahwa gua jelek. Ngga pernah ada yg memuji gw cantik atau manis. Itu membuat gw merasa diri gw tdk berharga. Gw makin ngga perduli sama diri gw sendiri. Public judgement memberi hukuman pada gw. Public judgement seolah-olah berkata bahwa yg jelek tdk diterima.
Akhirnya jadilah gw yg minder dan selalu berdiri di belakang. Yg setiap maju ke dpn umum gemeteran

sampe satu mlm pas gw kenal Tuhan dan guw berdoa , saat itu gw baru mengerti bahwa Tuhan tdk melihat pada penampilan tp pada hati. Hatiku yg hancur pun akan dipulihkan. Gw menyadari diri gw berharga tanpa harus punya idunk yg mancung (sampe hr ini jg idung gw pesek), diri gw berharga tanpa harus punya body yg aduhai, diri gw berharga tanpa harus punya jari yg lentik. Gw berharga karena pribadi gw. Karena Tuhan yg menciptakan mata, hidung, mulut, dan semua bagian dr tubuh kita. Ketika kita menyalahkan keburukan kita secara fisik, kita jg sedang menyalahkan Tuhan.

Gw merasa dicintai apa adanya gw. Gw merasa berharga tanpa harus memiliki semua itu

Gw tetep bkn yg tercantik, yg termanis, yg terindah, yg terrrr...segala²nya.Tp semenjak gw menyadari bahwa hati yg cantik merupakan mutiara yg terindah bagi wanita .. sejak itu ada yg bilang bahwa gw cantik. Why?


* hahhahhha! Semangat ni ngetiknya .. Tapi legaaa.. Coz gw berharga bagi DIA *